I've always been indecisive

the world is laid before me
all I have to do is choose
what to do and where to go
but my mind keeps jumping around
I'm not sure what I want
eyes darting from possibility to possibility
a frenzied affair of confusion

I know it's cliche' but whateverrrrr

I watched her slip away
from a brilliant girl
to a mindless wraith
eaten away by society

they said she was too smart
"you'll never get a guy"
so she dumbed it down

they said she dressed to conservative
"you look like such a prude"
so she showed more skin

they said it was cool
"everyone smokes"
so she lit up

they said it was fun
"the buzz is amazing"
so she gulped it down

they said it would only hurt for a second
"just a little prick and you'll be in wonderland"
so she shot up

from a straight A-student
to straight up stupid
in just a few short months

look what you've done

kiss my eyes and lay me to sleep
on a bed of daisies and white roses
where they will never find me
surround me in a tomb of glass
so all can see my pain
the broken heart that bleeds forever
staining even the purest white rose

I wish I could be like this foreverrrr

I wish that I could lay in bed forever
the blanket's warmth against my skin
my head gently resting on the pillow
my eyes barely open
as soft glowing light filters through my eyelashes
and I lay in a state of muddled happiness
unaware of all the evils that surround me
all the horrors in the world
because all I can see
all I can think about
is a soft glow that looks like
makes me feel like
everything is
and always will be
good

string me up

my heart gets confused
all tied in knots
not knowing what to think
of my latest predicament
wondering how it will ever
fix the mess I've made of it

sickkk

I really wish that my mind
would leave the door
to my memories of you
shut
but it never does
I try and put a padlock on it
and hide the key
but it always finds it
and brings back memories
that torture my soul
and make me ache
from the inside out
sitting here
all I can do is think about you
and know I'll never see you again

eeep

I wear my heart on my sleeve
affixed with piercing safety pins
but it's paper so it never bleeds
when I cry it gets soaked with tears
with wounds that can't be fixed with scotch tape
I need to escape